Last time singing K with her

In Mid April , you had to go to Shanghai to see the doctor again.  After visiting the doctor during the day, you asked if we could meet a few friends for dinner.  I thought not a bad idea, then you suddenly requested me: [Eddie, life is impermanent, today when we go out for dinner, can I have a little bit of drink? Please forgive me.]  Sigh, what could I say?  After dinner, it was only about 10:00p.m.  you suggested to sing K.  Our friend immediately called to reserve a room for us.  You, slightly drunk, asked for a few songs.  For all those years songs you liked to sing at Karaoke were:  Ah Lam's "This night", "Seemingly lost in a dream ".  You always liked to sing Ah Lam's songs in K, also performed very very well.  Before we left, you suddenly went to the mini stage in our room, sitting in the high chair, revolving the chair and sang without music but with heart "Moon represents my heart", that was the last time we sang K together.

About half a year ago, I arrived at Shanghai one night, I went to drink with friends, they were afraid that I would get drunk again, so they reserved a room in Karaoke.  Who knows, when we got there, it was the same room that we went last time together, I looked at the room number, 223, full of bewilderment, my birthday...with slight drunkenness I sat in that high chair, and sang......."Moon represents my heart".....

Got foot measurement when she lying there

I come back to spend the Mid Autumn Festival with you.  You asked me to have dinner at Mrs Mui's place first, then we had the Festival with our friends at your roof top.  At Mrs Mui's  we looked for those clothes designed by me, if suitable, we could send to the museum, because you knew the museum was collecting all clothes designed by me for future exhibition.  This was the first time I had dinner in Mrs Mui's place.  Donny helped us to get a old case,  I unexpectedly found clothes designed by me.  The first one was the white jacket you wore for the Japan competition right after you won the New Singer Competition.  Snow white jacket, after 20 years, already turned to patches of yellow.  I looked at you,  how come years had changed confidence in your face to reluctance (helplessness??)!  I comforted you in my heart, you are not alone, this world is full of reluctant (helplessness??) people!

About 10 days before your  concert, you just finished the chemo therapy, you were very tired, you slept most of the time.  You knew that I was busy for making costumes for you, at the same time worried about your health, I was mentally and physically exhausted.  The company that made the pair of golden boots for the opening scene wanted me to give them measurement of every part of your foot, as they wanted the boots to fit better.  I went to the front of your bed quietly, realizing you were deep in sleep, couldn't stand to ask you to get up, I whispered to you: [Never mind, I just want to have the measurement.]  You looked at me, smiling and lying in bed.  I measured your both feet, I took the measurement of  circumference for every 2 inches, and accurately recorded the thickness of every part.  The mutual confidence between us made me love you in silence.  Let me remember your loveliness and sincerity until the day my memory getting blur.

Heart broken by your throwing out

On December 30, at 2:35a.m. you left!  Donny rushed out to look for the doctor, I rushed to front of you to hold your hand, and fared you well in your ear, the nurse knew I couldn't stand you to leave, so told me quietly: [Miss Mui should have already left!]..........sigh........thank you for walking through the brilliant parts of my life.

To let you leave this world in peace,  prayers had to be said for 8 hours. no one was allowed to touch you.  At 11:00a.m, nurses had to prepare for you, who knows when your face tilted to one side,  a big pile of water flew out.  I only saw nurses draw the curtains hurriedly, rushed to get towels and cleaned you.  Then the car from funeral home came, we accompanied you to the funeral home, and sent you to the room on the fourth floor.  They placed you on the bed, I had been with you all the time.  They untied the cloth that wrapped you, my goodness, another pile of blood, they immediately got the towels to clean you.  I thought this time should be final, who knows when they got the pillow for you to let you sleep more comfortably, just when they lifted your head, another gulp of blood flew out of your mouth, it broke my heart.....!

My beloved Little Mui Sister, brother Jim who used to love you so much left recently too.  In this world, it seems that I have less worries, no need to linger too much, stars all clustered in the sky.... Danny Zai, Ro Kee, Leslie, Ah Mui, Brother Jim ....I looked at the sky with stars in the distance tonight, remembered what Brother Jim wrote, that you had sung: [When you look at the stars in the sky, would you think of me!]

Ah Mui........Ah Mui

The sky in the night is beautiful because of the numerous stars, life becomes more worth to cherish because of friends.... cherish.....I'm speechless in solitude.